2018: Another Year, A Letter

Dear You,

Welp, it’s that annual sappy post about New Year’s! Except I’m a week late. 😛

While this post coincides with my 21st birthday, I often double up stuff like this all the time. So I guess it’s not completely out of occasion.

To begin, I guess nothing feels out of the ordinary. Just like how I feel about birthdays, it was just another day. Although we did promote four officers for the new year: Valynda, Dolgon, Allibi (finally!), and Viestra. So that’s a new beginning! I feel that we haven’t promoted many officers over the year – partly because I sort of feel alone in leading the guild.

In terms of real life though, I think the biggest resolution is to expand my interest in motion graphics. I want to learn more, create more. It’s not something that I’m like strikingly good at, but it obviously takes a lot of practice. Just like the amount of effort I put into DDO, sigh, lol.

But for the game, I want to continue the work I’ve been doing. Reaching out to people, expanding the channel, expanding the guild, and focusing on hosting more events, raids, meetings, and more. As much as I want to keep it up though, I feel that it’s going to be strenuous. I don’t know if that’s good for me as it clashes with my real life resolution.

Keep in mind these aren’t real resolutions – in fact, I have a vague idea as to what I want to better myself in, but I never solidified these wishes. I think that’s what I’m doing now.

Well, in any case, I’m always sensitive to the feeling of starting anew, or ending something. Today (or rather yesterday, my schedule is so messed up) was my birthday, and I was so astonished by how many people showered me with warm wishes. I didn’t even tell anyone, but by word of mouth by those who remembered, the entire day I had friends wishing me a happy birthday. It was great, and kind of a first in a long time! Because I’m so apathetic to birthdays, these pleasant surprises remind me of the ultimate blessing I have: loved ones around me. While my day was just a normal day, somehow it felt more special by these simple things. Perhaps not having such expectations is part of that though. 🙂

2018 and 2019 I foresee a lot less DDO. That’s when I’ll be the most busy with coursework. But I’ll probably somehow find a loophole around that, I almost always do! I’ve probably said Happy New Year over a thousand times at my job and to friends, and I hope mine will be at least unchanging. But that’s kind of a bad thing to wish for when New Year’s is all about change, lol.

In any case, I hope the guild feels that they are under good hands. I hope my friends strive for better things in life. And I dearly hope I can grow in every aspect, from real life to DDO. I’m 21, but I’m still a baby really!

I think above all, I want to make more artworks and stick with it. Even if it doesn’t further my particular career, it’s something I’ve finally been able to grasp onto, so I don’t want to let go.

When my guildie linked a horoscope to my birthday, I thought it was interesting and fun to read. Was quite funny in how accurate it was, despite horoscopes generally not matching up. But I guess this year there was some common ground.

Today, I was in a particularly good mood because it felt like I was free. I didn’t feel obligated to help, even though I still couldn’t help myself. Sometimes I wish my birthday was every day in that sense! But, that would be selfish wouldn’t it?

I felt like I mattered, that I was important because I’ve tried to not think about myself in a greater light than anyone else. I don’t really have a focus on the need to feel important because it’s something that just simply didn’t have it’s place in it for me, but I can see why some emphasize it sometimes. While part of me prefers solitude, the other part is the outgoing side of me that cherishes people and just wants to be liked, loved. I saw so many people who normally don’t play anymore log in, and while some were coincidence, I think that was one of the greatest gifts.

Everyone will have a special place in my heart, and while that will be hard trying to fit each and everyone… you have made it all the more worthwhile to always keep trying no matter what.

Love,

A tired Sera writing, once again, at 7AM after a long gaming session.

First 2016 Post…

Can’t believe I didn’t have a New Year’s Resolution post or anything like that to kick off 2016, but here it is! Then again, not really a New Year’s kinda person, although I did accomplish something… my goal to stop hoarding in game, LOL. It’s finally coming around, but let me tell you… it was so gawsh dang hard!! xD 2 days after my birthday, I decided to hold a “Garage Giveaway” event for guildies and friends on open invite, and it took a total of maybe 2-3 hours? It ended up being more of an “everyone’s giveaway” as we had people offering up stuff too – it was very hectic, but fun!! And super kind of others to offer things up too, takes a bit to give away antiques and items near and dear to our hearts.

Well, I finally cleared up ONE bank toon for rerolling. The much despised (sorry haha) Velvettarte will be rerolled, but I’m a bit wishy washy in what she will end up as. I’m kind of locked into a point where she has to be an Elf Paladin (I hate having double races among the new toons, so for consistency and flavor’s sake…) but that doesn’t exactly sound viable or at least optimal for a tank build; I was wanting to create a Paladin tank for raiding if we ever needed one. But now, I’m kind of rethinking this after last night – if I’m able to turn Sylvette into a quasi-tank two handed fighting Warpriest… then maybe I have room to create Velvettarte into something else.

So some of the options… perhaps a two weapon fighting Elven Paladin (pure), or an Elven Sorcerer build – although that doesn’t really work out that well, since I was thinking at the very least, having a Displacement Dragonmark clickie would be something for a melee type character (unlike an arcane who can cast the spell). There is always the reason for nothing but pure flavor, but I like to have some utility…

Or perhaps I could make use of the Elven Arcane Archer tree and choose a unique class blend, maybe that pure Spellsinger AA build I’ve always wanted to try. Or a Favored Soul Arcane Archer build, ooh! So many choices, le sigh.

Either ways, at least I know which options to rule out: Celesteine will be the Sun Elf Cleric, Ashimerelle the Halfling Ranger, and Rinnybon the Half-Elf Warlock (all pure). All I know is that Velvettarte will be Elven something, haha!

There is one thing I’ve also been tossing and turning about: their last names. It seems I only have Rinnybon’s and maybe Velvettarte’s surnames down (and Velvettarte will be renamed to Velvenillah), but the other two I’m still stuck about what theme I have in mind for them. Ashimerelle could keep her surname (Amberstorm) but I feel like there might be something cooler out there. Celesteine’s surname was the one I fretted about for who knows how long: Glitterglow? Cloudheart? Somehow it doesn’t sound right.

There is also the opposition theme I have in mind for Celesteine the Sun Elf and Velvettarte the “Vanilla” Elf – probably making Velv’s appearance in mind of a Moon Elf to reciprocate the theme I have for Celesteine, but that would mean I have to make Celesteine’s surname stronger, something with fire, sun, and the like.

All in all, at least this post kind of directs the route I want to take with these bank toons. I still have an extra slot to create, and I have no idea what I will do with that! This is kind of just me blabbing, but sometime I’ll have to sit myself down and figure it all out! Of course, given how long it took just to clean out one bank toon for rerolling, I have a feeling this can’t be done in one go. But at the very least, I can do this while DDO is on downtime. LOL.

😀